Prayer meditation:

 „Lord, I have fallen
 Again.
 I'm exhausted, I will never reach the goal,
 I am  ashamed of myself, I don't dare to face
 you anymore...
 Your voice,
 And your glance,
 And your love give me pain.
 They weigh heavily on me, pressing,
 More pressing than my  own sins ...
 Come, my child, lift your head.
 Is it not above all your pride that is hurt?
 If you would love me, you would have sorrow,
    but you would also have trust.
 Do you believe that the love of God has limits?
 Do you believe that I have stopped loving you even for a moment?
 Yet you rely only on yourself, my child,
 You can rely only on me.
 Ask me for forgiveness
 And then rise up strong again;
 For, you see, the worst is not the falling,
 But allowing resignation to overcome you.“ [Michael Quoist]

- Luke 5:30-32 (The sick are in need of a physician)

During the day we listen alertly as with a sixth sense to the "language of our body" with its demands so in time we can understand it better and better.  Our heart beat and breathing, for example, tell us much about our inner condition.  Often it is these clearly felt reactions that prompt us to ask following a conversation, "Why does my body feel so tense after this talk?  Why is my heart beating so fast?   Why am I all of a sudden so tired and depressed?"  When we receive such messages from our body, stop, if possible for a few minutes and pursue the message: "Have you done something wrong, which you can't defend?  Have you slipped up in an important matter?  What is the reason for this condition?"  If the truth of our failure comes clearly into consciousness, we can recall it again later after the commotion of the day.  We also must "take seriously", i.e. accept the truth, of our bitterness, burden, and failure so it can be given over to God. Then we ask in the presence of God how we are to take up the battle against this failure.

Suggestion:
Conscious attentiveness to the actualities of daily life prepare us for a comprehensive "mid course correction" of our life in whatever way we allow it to be realized and developed.  (Such "conscience research" can find a definite place in every spiritual life.)  We should  remind ourselves again what an extraordinary offer Jesus made to his disciples with the possibility of confessing their sins to a person and receiving the forgiveness of God in, with and under the word that person speaks to them (Mt. 16:19; Jn. 20:23).  It is important for everyone who makes regular confession a natural part of his or her life, as well as for those who have previously feared to do that , to become aware  of the magnitude of the offer.